There are times when you feel the doubt is building inside you,

There are times when you feel the world is all yours,

There are times when you feel that you could not stand any longer,

There are times when you feel like giving up,

Nonetheless there are always things that hold you from breaking apart.

Today's book-Twilight The Graphic Novel Volume 1

Twilight The Graphic Novel Volume 1 ! A very good headstart for my holiday I would say. I finished reading it only in few hours. It's like you're reading and watching the story at the same time. It brought back the memory I first had when I first read the series back then. Highly recommended for all the twilight lovers out there. Can't wait to get my hands on the volume 2 book. Here's a few reviews on what is inside the graphic novel.

Believe

Doubting yourself is a normal thing to happen. Feeling inferior is normal too. I should always keep in mind that everything in life is never easy. That when I choose to take this road, my whole life will change. I shouldn't give up before trying. I need to climb every stair towards the top. I must empower myself with every knowledge that I can gather. I must believe in myself that I am going to get what I want.

Chance

The moment when I was still struggling to fit in, I was given another choice. A gift from Allah. This is all I ever wanted for so long. Now the chance lay in front of me waiting to be grabbed. Thinking about every possibility, I chose to grab the chance. Telling myself it won't happen twice. I chose the road to my dream, my goal. To Allah I pray that He will guide me in every step that I take towards success.

Us

How far can we get together? To where are we heading? How long can we spend time with each other? Unpredictability.

Renew

There is nowhere I could go with this self doubt wave that has hit me for the past few days. I am going to renew myself. To learn to throw away the things that have been holding me back. I need to strive harder. Perceiving the thought that I haven't give in enough kicked me straight into reality. This is just how the world works. It's just a matter of moving on or you'll stay wherever you're standing now years ahead and watch people you know achieve what they have been looking for. I don't want to be pitied for being in the same level and not gaining anything. This is the turning point of my life. I need to make it works the right way.

foundation studies

It’s been quite a long time since i posted my last entry. It’s been almost one month, wait i think it’s already one month since i enrolled myself at pasum. To begin with, life here is...ermm. It’s not that bad but my schedule is packed though. I’m still trying to conform to the new milieu. Talk about class, I got a place in the top group following the result of our English placement test before. I keep telling myself that it wasn't all about the English test. Surely they won’t just split us into group based on that test ONLY. Do they? Well I feel like the stupidest in the group regardless how good my result turned out to be. I mean those boys and girls in my group own amazingly superb background in academic. Not that I don’t but I feel defeated in many ways. My confident level was dragged to the bottom line. I know I shouldn't give in to this kind of emotion. Nonetheless I just can’t ignore it. I regretted taking the test seriously.  Frankly speaking, I don’t like being in that circle. It drives me crazy thinking about how I am going to survive to the top among the top students. I don’t want to be left behind. I need to use every will to be on top because even when I fall, it will only be a few steps behind. Stress has taken it tolls on me. I am only hoping that everything will be just smooth and fine and I can live my gaily life like I used to before. Deep inside, i know that i can do this. i can survive. because that is what I've been doing all along for the past few years. only this time it's going to be harder. oh god i sound like katniss the girl from the hunger games book when she's chosen to be in the arena. Lol. 

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Kadang-kadang susah jugak nak terima apa yang orang kata. Or is it just my nature? I don't know. But sometimes apa yang orang kata tu ada betulnya. Jadi terima jelah for my own good.

Senior year

It's been a couple of months since I finished high school. Senior year is the most unforgettable moment of every student's life I think. So did I! Despite struggling to adapt to the hectic environment due to the important public exam, I put extra effort in spending quality times with my fellow friends. It's the year where we created most of the memories that we couldn't possibly forget till we're old. All the sweetest memory will always be reminisce again and retold in the future which makes it even more precious. 

Maple leaves

I think most girl prefer roses. Some of them like lavender or maybe lilies. But as for me I love the maple leaves. It's not like I totally hate roses or lavender or lilies. It just that they are too common I guess. It's not something rare to find a girl who loves roses so much.

Travelling

Someday I want to travel around the world. I want to go for a walk on the Trift's bridge in Switzerland. I want to spend my time watching the water rush down from the Niagara waterfall. I want to discover the monuments in Rome. I want to get on the double decker bus in London. I want to shop in NYC. I want to see the place where the Hobbit's movie was cast in New Zealand. And most of all I want to do that with my love one.

World without boundaries

The world is getting creepy these days I supposed. We share almost everything about our life with people around the world in spite of not knowing each other via the social networking such as facebook and twitter. Updating our current news which include our personal life and other stuffs. Frankly speaking I think there are things that we should and shouldn't tell the community. Well basically it's for our own safety. Posting our pictures on the web could be dangerous too. We never know if someone could possibly misuse our pictures for something that is really really bad. So just put in our mind a piece of advice that we should be careful of what we're sharing with the world. It's the norm of being part of the world without boundaries

Future plan

Making a life decision is one of the hardest part as a human being. Arranging a plan on what we're going to do in the future is easy but what makes it hard is when we're going to work it out. I'm still thinking of what i want to do in the future. All I could figure out is that I want to take a science course in university. I want to be a dentist but then I want to be a chemical engineer too. Pffttt. Should I call it a life crisis?? I guess so. I could choose any course I want for my parents gave me all the freedom in making decision on my own. But this ain't easy. I don't want to take the wrong path in my life and live to regret it later. So I should probably think harder and sort this mess out.

SPM

SPM stands for sijil pelajaran malaysia. It's a really important exam here in Malaysia. We need to use the result from the exam to enrol ourself in any of malaysia's university that offer foundation or diploma programmes for the spm candidates. We could also use the result to apply for other foundation courses such as A-level, australian matriculation(AUSMAT) and so on. So after taking this exam, it means that we also finished our high school year. The thing that keep bugging my mind was that how my spm's result would turn out to be? Is it good or is it not good? I'm suffocating just thinking about this. Goshhh. The result would be coming out in few days and all I can do now is keep praying that everything will be just fine.  And that all my hard work and efforts would pay off. InshaAllah.

Judgement

People around you keep making judgement about your life. Your hair, your face, your action, your clothes.  Let just say almost everything that are related to you. Basically there's a good judgement and a bad one. Getting a compliment would be a judgement that could make you smile all day long. But what if it is a bad judgement that makes you hurt deep down? It's going to haunt you every second, every minute or hours or even days. Or worst months and years. This could affect you mentally. And then maybe physically. What I'm trying to imply here is that people won't stop judging. All you have to do is go on with your life. Ignore what they say. Accept everything that is given to you by god willingly. Nobody's perfect. The only way to feel almost perfect is to be yourself. To be proud of what you have. That's all. But as people said it's easier than done. Nonetheless you won't lose anything if you give it a try. :-)

Car license

Hyeppp. Sooo. I passed my car test. And I would be getting my driving license this coming sunday. I'm so freaking happy and grateful. The car was being nice to me today. Thanks god! So after this I can drive wherever I want legally. Plus,I dont have to mind about meeting the jpjs or the police anymore. Weeee :D

HI

hello everyone.big HI from me.hee..i finally made up my mind about all this blogging thingy. so here i am. i just thought that maybe creating a blog can help me to hone the skills to communicate well with people around me and also broaden my networking. the truth is that back when i was in high school (which i just finished last year), i hate writing essays. well actually that is because i'm too lazy to spill out any idea. pffttt. but soon i realized that i love to talk about anything. i mean random stuffs. i had lots of small talk in my head. and i think that maybe i should share it with the world. i guess thats all i want to say. till then..yours sincerely, ME :)